Hey y’all.
This is just aw quick post to say I think I need to work on my humility. This is a long standing pet project for Lainey (that is to say, she has been learning how to make herself humble, not that she has been trying to humble me). See her latest post on the subject here. I think I have finally reached a point where I see a certain truth to this virtue: namely, that it effects so many of the other things I struggle with–vanity (duh), need to control, need to “understand” or make sense of everything that happens…
The sermon this week was about humility; last week’s was about Jacob wrestling with God. I was struck at how well these two go together. When God (or the man, or the angel, depending on translation) dislocated Jacob’s hip <ouch!>, it was a way of making him dependent on God right when Jacob was having to face his biggest crisis: having to confront his brother Esau. With this dependence come his humility- because he can’t rely on his own guile/speed/cunning to get away, and he’s feeling pretty sure Esau is coming to kill him. Hobbled, he has no choice but to meet and try to make peace with his brother.
All right there’s plenty more to the story and my attempt to retell/ analyze it will just ruin it, so I’ll stop there.
Point is I feel I’ve been too dependent on my own cunning, guile, rational, time management skills…etc. for a while, and I need to let it go.
Now if I could just figure out how to do that, or what that looks like.
Thank God for His grace.
Filed under: Day to Day, The Big Questions
